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"Hating My New Job"

(San Francisco, Wednesday, 25th August 1999, 9.12 p.m. PST. )

Returning to work was no great shakes on Monday - more mindless surfing the intranet. At least I had pleasant thoughts from the night before, where Hector and I had had a nice dinner together then walked along the Marina to the Wave Organ, where we did scandalous things to each other :) One of the first things I did at work on Monday was some manual labor - assembling my new chair - it was a pleasant break from routine, which says a lot!

Let's see, which way is up?
Let's see, which way is up?

Tuesday looked like more of the same. I learned, to my amazement, that I may have to go away this weekend for another week of training. At least this will be in Maryland, which means I can stay in D.C. But I'm not ready for another trip - oh boy.

From sheer boredom, and natural inquisitiveness, I got chatting to our administative assistant in the afternoon. I was pretty sure he was gay, and we danced around the subject a little until I straight out asked him. It turned out to be a great move. We had a good long conversation, and he told me about all the other people in the office who are gay. To my surprise, it turned out to be six out of around 30! The other admin is a wonderful, middle-aged lesbian - great fun, so I went and outed myself to her as well, and we had a nice chat. So at least it looks like I'll have some good company in the office.

I'd slept horribly the night before - Monday night - that's always the noisiest night at the club across the street since the people who go to that night love to come out at all hours of the night and chat for hours on the street at the top of their voices. I'm going to start calling the police on them for loitering. Anyway, Tuesday, I was dead tired. But I'm getting into a good routine with running, so I forced myself to go. I ran in the Marina again, which is fast becoming my second home. It started off nice and warm, but the fog came in rapidly and when I finished it was pretty cool.

Running in the Marina while the fog cometh
Running in the Marina while the fog cometh

I'm not liking this pattern, but my sleep is really off right now. I couldn't have slept more than three hours last night. Eventually, with my mind tossing and turning, I got up around 4.00 and spent hours making some long-planned changes to my website. I got into the swing of it and decided to take the day off work. I really got a lot done today.

The eviction drama today ended up being completely undramatic - the guy was docile, and left with no trouble. The landlord changed the locks, and that was that! A coda to this is that I came back later in the afternoon from another trip to the Marina, and the guy was hanging around the building. We'd been told to call the Police if he was here, but he seemed harmless. I began to realize that he is now homeless and couldn't help but feel sorry for him, even though he's done it to himself. He said he was hungry so I gave him some protein bars (that's all I had!)

In the afternoon, I realized that it was a beautiful day outside, and I'd been holed up all day, so I took off for the Marina to take some more photos of some of the places I discovered recently.

Swathe of fog coming in the Bay
Here you can see a classic San Francisco fog formation. It comes in through the Golden Gate Bridge and gets channeled. It often keeps that formation for a couple of miles!

On the pier that juts out into the bay.
On the pier that juts out into the bay. I think I'm not supposed to be doing what I'm doing :) One of the things I love about San Francisco is the beauty of the skyline - all those buildings of different shapes, and sizes - all of them slightly different shades of white, and the silouhette of the mass of them contoured by the underlying hills.

Since I didn't work today, I realized again that the current of my mind has totally changed over the last six months. I'm no longer comfortable with the idea of corporate life. I get so much enjoyment from my personal life outside of the office, and from working on the website. I wish there was some way I could find to make it pay enough for me to quit my job - I'd do it like a shot! Gotta think about this.

 
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